The Caelyn's Human Equation :

Love is a notion.
Love is a choice.
A notion is a choice.

Feel is not tantamount to love.
What does feelings constitute to?
Emotions attached? Yes yes but . . .
How do I explain That ?

A notion being read, feelings being felt.
to the Only exception.


Fire as all said, fiery fiery.
Is that so so so so apparent?

Source of river,

Inability to explain.
I just love. I just feel.
The touch. The connection.
Sacrificed my precious moment for the lamb's coming.
Lamb, you owe me one! Big time!
For all that youu find, I'm here.
For all that we' have, I love.

Love, in the air.
Love, I give.


Changes or as they call it, Evolution.
So I guess I probably am not the retard in POS.
What's needed may not always be what one wants.
I guess. . . .
I just have to admit that what I didnt want is what is needed.
It was in me anyway. It only became more apparent that day.
What has CONSCIOUS DINNER done to me!?!?!

Reminisce. Source of the River.

How long has it been?


Suspect X,

I was toxicated by the mere words.
What of those made me so mesmerized?
The criminal is guilty as self-charged.
Handcuffed but no strings attached.
Locked in a cell with no clear definition of what a cell is.
So where is the criminal really?

Its conscious dinner tonight. Yippies!
Sex bomb sex bomb, you're my sex bomb!
STUPID EXAMS! I could have stayed over. GRR!
You are 5days old.


On the 18April2010,
I planted the seeds.
The seeds of fate.
Will I plant the seeds for growth
and see how it blossoms during the next 10months?


Tranquil state of insanity.
Kryptonite of the multiverse.
Cirling electrons, soul vibration.
Welcome to the infinite Earth.


Star you are. Now I know. But it wasnt the initial.
That pair of eyes went thru my mind.
That phrase kept flashing thru my mind.
The haunting uns are killing me softly.
Balance the imbalances. Tick tock tick tock.


When I'm more firm on this decision,
I am thinking twice about the other decision,
which supposedly feeds my firmness on the other decision.

I've gotten a feel of the accident, yet again. Still, I screwed up.
Patience I need to learn, and sometimes I wonder.. but time doesnt wait.
Learn gal. Learn.

Mountain we should climb.
Looking forward to end of my cui-ness as a student.
Still, theres a fear inside me. So apparent. . . .

Polygamous on the outside. Monogamous on the inside.
As much as I wish I wasnt monogamous. . . . . . . . . . .


When all are aiming.
Where do I land?

Indeed, my views are different now.
But, my heart still retained the same old me.

The journey of uncertainty is no longer that scary.
But the journey to answers is still something I yearned for.
Sometimes, theres never answers to everything.
So you said Shit you and I smiled. . . . .

When you feel like the time is paused,
thats when you are in that moment.
Locked it in. Deep in the heart.

So I wonder am I monogamous.


Dust in the wind.
Keeps me in constant reminder of what is and was here.
Holding infinity in our palms, then there we love.

A new Semester arrives.
New sup group, new coaches, new dynamics.
What's new about new anyways.
Hold myself to what I saw and a decision has to be made.
Its not wise to make a No decision but what can make me JUMP?
Whats sad is that Its so true that there is no turning back,
but again knowing is one thing, doing is another.